Lieutenant has been gone less than a week and I can't seem to find the strength to get out of bed sometimes. He's trying not to stress out at IFS but they have 2 chances to pass a 300 question exam during their stay. He's exhausted and I'm just not myself without him. It sucks because he has no service where he is at so when I do get to talk to him we get disconnected every 3 minutes.
There is a spouse's orientation coming up and I'm shockingly shy. It freaks me out - there I said it. I'm not good at meeting people because I don't like when people judge me for things other than the quality of person I am.
I'm starting to hate eating on this diet so much that I'd rather just not eat. I have no energy AT ALL but I push myself to use all the energy that I can come up with to work out.
And then to top everything off - my rear brakes are shot and we can't afford the $150+ right now when I hardly drive anywhere. But its still annoying.
Ugh, I'm just so miserable without him here.
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I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling. I really recommend that you come out and meet some of us. I think you will find us pretty welcoming. Next week along with orientation there is the Jewelry Party and Heart Link. If it would make you feel more comfortable, I can get a few people together for lunch before than so you at least have a few familiar faces :) We are all going through or have been through the same thing with our boys at IFS.
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