Do you ever stop to think that maybe you made a mistake? Like the college you chose or the ghosts of boyfriends past come ahaunting? Its a fragile little world we live in and sometimes things get so crazy that we just don't stop to think.
When we got Green, we didn't imagine she would get sick every other week. 2 ongoing UTIs, now she ate a flea and got tapeworms. Lieutenant is frustrated, I'm frustrated. We are literally at each other's throats...he wants to give her back. I'm pretty sure he wants to give me back too.
Honestly, maybe he just wasn't ready..for me or for her. Maybe it would be best if she left..or if I did. Maybe that is what he wants.
I don't know, to be perfectly honest..I don't like that she's sick but I handle it the best way I can. I give her multiple baths and do all her feedings and watch her very closely. I do my best to keep the house clean and have food ready when Lieutenant gets home from work. Lately it feels like my best just isn't good enough.
I'm sitting here at a crossroads not knowing where to go. Everything feels like its falling apart.
I hate that feeling. And for the record, the dog is super cute but tapeworms and UTI's are a serious pain in the ass. Not sure if you've figured the trick out yet, but use baby wipes on her. Bailey used to get bladder infections and now with a special diet and baby wipes, we've been able to avoid another surgery for over 2 years (knock on wood).
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