Going home!

I finally get to go back home to my family! This has been the craziest whirlwind of my life and this is a much needed vacation for both Lieutenant and myself. It is 3 AM here and I can't sleep because my mind is racing with a thousand thoughts. Instead, I've managed to clean out and scrub down the freezer, refrigerator, stove, pantry, microwave, kitchen drawers AND I even cleaned out the coffee machine! I'm so excited to be back with my crazy family again!

I was not originally going, though, because of how expensive it was. But something in Lieutenant changed his mind from only him going (since he had to take care of car registration issues and renewing his Nevada license) and maybe my crying helped out a little too - and he bought our very expensive plane tickets home. Thank god we are light travelers..I can't believe how expensive flying is!!

I've also had baby fever lately. Everywhere I go I see babies, all the blogs I follow seem to be pregnant with their 3rd or 4th and all my friends on Facebook are pregnant or just had children. On one hand I am so happy for them but on the other hand it breaks my heart. I know that we have all the time in the world and we should wait. The logical part of me knows the right thing to do is wait, but I've always wanted to be a mommy. I've always wanted to be a stay-at-home soccer mom that takes care of the house and the kids and has passion while doing it. Maybe it is because I never had a mom growing up...all I know is that a little part of me dies inside knowing we are not trying to conceive. Lieutenant wants to wait until he is a Major before we start having kids. That is SIX year you guys, count em 1 2 3 4 5 6. That is five too many for me right now. And to put the cherry on top of everything, my best friend from high school has made me the god-mother of her baby girl due in 2 weeks. Its like being the bridesmaid and never the bride! I'm going to love that little girl though, she has no idea how much I already love her!

Hmf.