I'm a terrible blogger. Sorry...sometimes I forget that this even exists. This week has really been a whirlwind. After my week vacation, coming home and having to reintegrate my life became too much to handle. I was trying to take care of myself, the dog, the apartment...all while feeling helpless. With Lieutenant gone I realize just how difficult things are and just how amazing it is to have a team mate. He is truly my rock and when he's here, everything seems so simple and perfect.
Today was a very difficult day because Hurricane Isaac made landfall in the area where he is training. There were at least five tornado warnings, heavy winds and rain and a lot of surge flooding from the ocean. I tried to keep it together because I know how stress is bad for the baby. He was able to communicate with me throughout the day which helped put my mind at ease but I was still worried.
Another struggle I am having is not being around my family. Not only did I miss the birth of my niece one year ago, but I also missed my nephew's birth this week and will miss another nieces birth in two months. It hurts me that I can't be there but we simply can't afford it. I'm also sad because I know that nobody in my family will save to come down here to see our baby. While I realize everyone is struggling with money right now, we can't be expected to come up with $500-$1000 to fly home, especially with a newborn. That is something that I think my family knows but doesn't understand.
At this point I have kicked up my feet and am pouting - but we knew this day would come. We knew what Lieutenant joining the military meant but man, is it a hard pill to swallow. We have to give up a lot but we are taken care of and are so grateful to be a military family. I am grateful for my husband's willingness to devote his life to his country and despite all the hardships we will go through in life, I will never regret the decision he chose to make, and the decision we chose to make together when we said "I do."
I really should blog more, this post was so therapeutic for me.
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I completely understand where you're coming from. Especially with our pending orders, just about no one is going to come visit us in Japan. Some wouldn't even bother to try and then some wouldn't leave us the hell alone. There's already an entire entourage planning their visit for when I have the baby and I'm not sure I can get rid of them... oh and did I mention that none of them are my family?! ARGH. It's so frustrating and so heartbreaking all at the same time. By the way, Lexi's teenage picture made me die laughing.
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