Working and words.

It was my second day on the job and I literally have information being thrown at me in every direction. It is a LOT of information and they want me doing it all alone by next week. I am kind of in shock and I'm nervous, sooo nervous. My feet hurt and I'm overly tired and hungry - this is from working just four hours. I never knew getting back into the swing of working would be this difficult to do.

Lieutenant and I also had an argument today and those are always rough. We both said and did things that shouldn't have been done and I feel terrible about it. He went to his best friend's house and I went to work and things never got resolved. So, I called and left an apologetic voice mail which when he calls me back I will repeat. Sometimes I feel bad because its mostly me saying sorry. Sometimes, even if just one of us is wrong, I think we should apologize to each other, because in some way communication and understanding got lost and it all became immaturity. When we fight, its like the weight of the world rests on my shoulders and my shoulders alone. The important thing is that we love each other and we work through each and every argument, no matter how small.


The one thing getting me through work and our little fights is knowing that one day we're going to live together and be married and all of this nonsense will fade away. It is just really hard to handle right now.