Worries.

Lieutenant is finally home and it has been a busy week. On his way home he got into a small collision so we have been dealing with that, finding out the sex of the baby (WOO!) and just trying to get our lives back to normal. He had a hard time with integration the first couple of days which was weird to me because he was only gone for the length of a less than half a deployment. He went back to work today though and I went back to figuring out meal plans, doing enormous amounts of laundry and planning for my next semester in school. I really want college to be over but I still have a ways to go and its frustrating. I know college is done at your own pace but in all reality I should have been done in August. My goal is just to buckle down and keep going, class by class. It may take me a year but I'm going to finish. I wish I had done community college first and then transferred to save myself a lot of debt but I can't go back now. I will be paying off this student loan until I'm 90.

We are also trying to move into a bigger apartment in January since the one we are currently in is extremely small and we won't be able to afford living on base. We would be completely broke for four months though so we probably won't be doing much celebratory things this Thanksgiving or Christmas. Lieutenant may fly out to Vegas to see his family but I would be staying here to save money. With my current job I make enough money to pay all of my bills but LT said that after the baby arrives he wants me to quit my job and be a full time stay at home mom while continuing school. I don't want to put the financial burden on him but he won't be able to handle the baby on weekends when I work while he is continuing his master's degree. We really need a miracle at this point financially. I feel bad that we got pregnant right now even though I know how much of a blessing it is, despite LT telling me I should never apologize for that. I just want us to be happy, healthy and financially stable and I feel like everything is crashing down on us.