Today has been an exceptionally hard day in Motherhood Land. Jelly Bean has been fussy all day long, my back is in excruciating pain from constant sitting and bending and it has just been a no good, very bad day. On top of that I'm too busy preparing for house guests to relax - we have JB's godfather coming down for his baptism/LT's promotion ceremony next week.
I'm just so exhausted...more than exhausted. The only thing that is keeping me from absolutely screaming into the pillow is writing here. I just need an outlet that isn't going to affect JB in any way because its not his fault that he has gas or is over tired or whatever the hell is going on with him that he can't communicate to me.
I'm also struggling with the reality of this c-section, postpartum weight and this giant pooch that wont go away so I can't even wear normal pants. And I'm supposed to pin on LT's new rank when I feel like a giant cow? Ugh. I wish I had a magic wand that would just shrink me down because I feel miserable. Nobody wants to wear maternity jeans a month postpartum. Hell, I will probably have to wear them for a few months. SO frustrating...
Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being a mom but everything feels like its piling on top of me and I'm suffocating.
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try not to focus on the weight. i know its hard. ive had 2 babies and it took me 9 months to get the weight off with my first and ended up having to take diet pills. with my second i ate better and stayed busy and nursed like crazy and the weight fell off in 19 weeks. i understand what you mean by not wanting to wear the maternity clothes any longer. with my first i went out and bought normal clothes and believe me i wish i hadnt. it so so depressing seeing that size. so this time i wore then until too big and then went straight to yoga pants. just try not to get too frustrated.
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