Burning bridges.

I have absolutely had enough of this job. I've said it before and I will say it again, I hate retail. More importantly, I hate the needy customers. I mean, I can go into a store and find my own clothes and I honestly don't want to be bothered. Our customers want you to be their girlfriend and shop with them and tell them how cute they look - not just for a few minutes but for an HOUR. Then you have your extreme couponers: Those who buy $3 clearance items and expect to be able to use their $10 off coupon. All I can think is "are you kidding me here because this has to be a joke."

I had to yell at one of my associates yesterday because she doesn't listen to me. She likes to gossip and personal shop with one customer for hours when she has stuff to do. Then she clocks out without doing any of it and its on me and one or two other people to get it all done. Well yesterday I had had enough. I was delegating her tasks to her to do before her shift was over and she WALKED AWAY in the middle of my sentence. So I told her to meet me in the back room and I told her that the way she was acting was disrespectful and we would have a meeting with the store manager. I got off the phone with my store manager and delegated another task to her and she started arguing with me loudly in front of customers. Every time I tried to talk she would interject with some protest and I couldn't take it anymore. I told her that if she wasn't going to listen to me than she needed to leave. She is the first employee that has made my blood boil. After scolding her, I was shaking out of anger so much that I had to stay in the back of the store just so I wouldn't say something that would make me lose my job. Next Friday, which is my birthday, is the day we are supposed to have the meeting and I am beyond pissed. I hate this employee and I hate this job.

On top of all of that, the lady at the DMV auto failed me for parallel parking errors. Then I went there today and was the last person for standby so I just left. I would have stayed but of course I have to drop everything in my life for this god damn job. Time is running out and if I don't get in there and pass this test, Lieutenant is going to Texas alone. I honestly just feel like crying right now. I am doing horrible in school, I never get to see my husband, I deal with crazy ass women at work and then I come home to insomnia where I can't fall asleep until 4am.

I am burnt out.